英语翻译我知道你为我做过很多,也在用各种方法鼓励我和帮助我,我真的很感激也很内疚,但是我现在再一直对你说谢谢和对不起你还

I know you have done a lot for me. You have helped and encouraged me in all kinds of ways. I am thankful as well as guilty. But will you accept if I say sorry and thanks to you now? I don't think so. So since the last letter you sent to me at your first term in American, I have kept the love in my heart. The best compensation I can offer you is not bothering your life and blessing you sliently in my heart that happiness is with you everyday. The days are happy with your company. I hope I have offered you a happy memory,too. Let's call the happy days" The days we grow up together" .Because after experienced so many things, I am more sensible. I won't hurt my lover with the distance or my ignorance any more. I am now in love with someone who I can stay with for four months in a year in a same place. But I am sensible, I won't hurt him as I have done to you. No matter bygone is either a lesson or our good memory, I will bless you forever and help you unconditionally. Because I am not ready to go out of your world forever. I sincerely wish we could be friends again.