英语翻译对不起.真的.怎么是这样.一直在回避.不想这个结果.不想 .好EX啊.心里乱七八糟的.曾经想 如果我知道我会恨她

sorry.
Really.How is the case.
Has been trying to evade.
Do not want this result.
Do not want to.
EX ah well.
Heart of Messy.
Have thought that if I know I will hate her hate her life.
But now.This is what it feels like ah.
Sad?Is not it.
May be too deeply love you.
Deep into what I have done something wrong can be forgiven.
Do not have a miss
I will miss to whom?
Thank you for giving me courage.
Give me the courage to live
Every time when I am in a bad mood.
Will want to have a YANGYANG I think this is the look that I am.
For her.Well alive.
Now?
Who for?
Who in the absence of things remind me of the time.
Who ah.
Hey...
Only sigh .