英语翻译我突然拥有了freedom,没想到这么多年还是一样的执着.不要问我为什么突然需要freedom,我只是徘徊在勇气

I suddenly have the freedom,did not expect so many years is still the same dedication.
Do not ask me why the sudden need freedom,I was just hovering between courage and cowardice.
Looked up the sky,as if it is still the same blue,but inexplicably,has felt a trace of hollow.
If there is the existence of God,I will let him give me strength.To break the dread,move forward!