breaking the habit

breaking the habit
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Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I m picking me apart again
You all assume
I m safe here in my room
(unless I try to start again)
I don t want to be the one
The battles always choose
Cause inside I realize
That I m the one confused
I don t know what s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don t know why I instigate
And say what I don t mean
I don t know how I got this way
I know it s not alright
So I m
Breaking the habit
Tonight
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again
I ll paint it on the walls
Cause I m the one at fault
I ll never fight again
And this is how it ends
I don t know what s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don t know how I got this
I ll never be alright
So I m
Breaking the habit
Breaking the habit
Tonight