英文翻译 口语化一点别烦我,我需要时间整理下思绪,行吗?我知道这段时间我很颓废,大家都不好过,但我需要时间让自己释怀.我

Just leave me alone,I need some time to clear my head,OK?
I know I've been wasting myself for a long time,and everyone's been having a hard time,but I need time to let go of it.
I admit that I totally shut down myself inside,running away from everything like a coward,it just that...I'm scared.
But i don't even know what I'm afraid of,fear of failure,fear of pain,fear of rejection.
Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision.
Because,what if I'm wrong,what if I'm making a mistake that I can undo.
And you know what the scariest part is,that whatever it is I'm scared of,one thing holds ture.
That ,by the time the pain of not doing a thing gets worse than the fear of doing it.
I can feel that,like the horrible feelings eat me alive... 再问： 你的比较靠谱 谢谢！