英语翻译I have this bad habit of getting close to people and the

英语翻译
I have this bad habit of getting close to people and then thinking that everyone I like is gonna hurt me.I have this bad habit of liking people a little too much,and always the one who cares more...I'm tired...I wish feelings didn't exist,why do feelings exist anyways?I always fall for something and let it destroy me.It's my fault after all,but I still have hope that someday I find a person that shares the same bad habits as me.