请英语高手帮我翻译一下~~~不要那种直译的~~

How I wish to accompany you through Christmas! How I wish to listen to the prayer in the church! How I wish to count down time together with you!
And you will never know how I wish to walk down one street and another on Christmas Eve, with your hand holding in mine.
But, I just cannot make it. I cannot. Sorry, baby, but there's no alternative.
Honey, would you please forgive me?