紧急求大神翻译成英文!跪求有品质的翻译!要PastTense的.不一定要完全的翻译,有那个意思就好了.

这是虚构的吧.
Suicide has been on my mind ever since I got blind from the car accident.I couldn't convince myself out of it.The darkness around me was just like a suffocating net that I couldn't escape from.I used to think maybe I could cut my wrist,or jump from high,or even take some pills.But my ears were not betraying the loving family around me.I heard the desperate tears from my mum and dad.I shouldn't do that to my poor parents.They've brought me up and they should reap the fruits now instead of paying tribute to a dead son.I decided not to commit suicide any more.I cried.I was all tears.I fell alseep at last.