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In your mind there really care about me?And what is my bored playmate?To play with the puppet?Why do you want to hurt me again
I have given you a lot of chance,whenever I gave up when you want to give up,will always give me a new hope,but were once again a will I hurt even more of the pain,the pain that I can't breathe!
How many a night I couldn't sleep,and many,many times I to the mirror helpless cry,my pain cannot tell can only be buried in the bottom of my heart,and this feeling can let me crack
More than once I came to your house downstairs,but I don't know that they do is right or wrong,always and silently leave,that day I called you on the phone,and you didn't answer the phone,yeah,and you do need to have a rest,which be like me so at leisure nothing running around,is to an explanation,a comfort!
I don't want to push you,also don't want to embarrass you,I have but you will not let it go out,so the heartache of you let me what to do,I don't know what you are worried about what,think what,don't you feel I am to like you of money?So you worry?No,you can know in front of me never lack the lure of money,a lot of things as long as I opened my mouth,and I get,you give it I can have,you can't give me also can have.But I have the unshakeable chose you.You think about it,what you have done for me,for which I paid what,love for me and insist on how much,and I in you never changed,but you owe my but with a wound to compensate for me,my pain and grievance know it or not,I don't like that!
Every time when embrace me to tell me that you love me,I feel is so sweet,and at the same time,so insecure,because I don't know you say this words at the same time is in thinking about others,what you wait will leave.
You give me good fantasy,and at the same time,will my love for burial.You occupy most of my life,to you I even have turned to their parents a promise,and I pay for you so much sentiment why should you will I hurt so pain,I really hurts so much painful,very tired tired.
My happiness is your care,but now I have no strength to struggle,I'm sorry,I can't afford to wait for this by,please don't blame me so impatient and so mean,but I can't share my lover.This time I'm not in the disgruntled,also not quit,but heart died,my heart had died,completely buried,I won't wish you because I have no so big degree,I also can't hate you,because hate the deeper the pain the malicious,but I will flow to the word because only hurt the won't forget.
Don't come looking for me,just as I have in the world disappears,forget me,
I'm sorry,I love you.