英语翻译我不想乱想,我知道乱想很累.我想对彼此信任,难道在乎一个人真的很累吗?感觉她就像一个城堡,永远把我挡在外面.我们

I don't want to get my mind in disorder because I am aware that it makes people tired.All I want is just trust between us,but is it really a burden for one to care about another?She seems to be a castle which always keeps me outside of it.Is it true that we can't get nearer to each other?All I have got for what I have done enthusiastically is only apartness and disappointment and I don't know why.Have I been wrong since the very beginning?