英语翻译‘我向往阳光,却一直活在黑暗中 但如果现在给我阳光,我依旧会活在黑暗中 我的脆弱 我的悲伤 是我活该’ 翻译成英

I am longing for the sunshine, but always live in darkness. However, if I can have sunshine now, I will still choose to stay in the dark. All I have are my weakness and sorrow. I deserve it.